Nope, still haven't found it!

I can't tell you the number of times I've started a post only to delete the lot! Starting again is hard. None of my history is here and, unless anyone read me before or knows me personally, some things I say might leave you a little confused! But I guess it's that way for anyone when they start out.

For the record, don't be expecting great things from me. I'm Mrs Average. I'm not an amzing writer or even particularly good with words. I'm not quick-witted (I read through so many other blogs wishing I was as funny as their writers!!). I'm not super-intelligent. Or super-gifted in a certain area. I'm just me and I got by ok the last time around so I'm hoping that, when the elusive 'groove' returns, it'll work out that way once again!

Actually, thinking about it, I'm not just me. I'm a Mummy. And that's kind of what defines who I am right now, and that's the way I've always wanted it. The Noods and The Frog each have their own blogs and I think that's maybe why I'm finding it so hard to start one of my own again. My life revolves around them. No, that's not true. They ARE my life! I'm really quite a dull person without them! I'm so not sociable. I'm happiest at home, with the nearest and dearest and and it takes me a loooong time to get to know new people and to be fully relaxed around them! If I could, I'd avoid new situations altogether! Guess that's why I love the internet so much! I can hide away. Hmm, I'm starting to sound like a crazy woman now! That has changed though. Since having children. I guess you could say I'm a little more....assertive..... and fiery.... than I used to be. As a Mum you go that extra mile, you're prepared to take the stand if needed.I'll even push the boat out and say I'm marginally more sociable too. Who would've thought I'd feel so at home at toddler groups, coffee mornings and play dates?!

But this isn't going to be a 'Mummy' blog. Not intentionally anyway! But, needless to say I'm sure it's what much of it will be about. Now I'm wondering whether to keep up with the little ones blogs and just put everything here, so it's easier. So there's a record of ME along with their records of themselves. Urgh, I've given myself a decision to make. Never a good idea!!

Hmmm. Anyway. I am still around and I AM still intending to properly return. Have just got to take that leap.

And if you find my groove anywhere? Send it this way!

Silence

So here I am, back in the bloggy world. Both children are asleep, which is unheard of (and possibly a bit dangerous at four o'clock in the afternoon!). I have time. I have peace. I have NOTHING to say!! Grrr..!!

I'm thinking it's going to take me a while to get back into the 'blogging groove'!

And so it begins...again!

New blog. Old blogger.

I was here once before. I began blogging in 2003 with 'elephants & dragonflies' but life, after a few years, got difficult and busy!

When I began I was young, care-free and had completely different focusses in my life! Since I began I've seen my Mum suffer a terminal illness, to pass away because of it, have had two beautiful babies (who are now 3 years and 10 months old), have gone from being in my early twenties to my late twenties, have given up my career and have grown up a hell of a lot.

I stopped blogging shortly after the death of my Mum and the birth of my first baby (which happened within 10 days of each other). I was in a strange place back then...extremely happy yet extremely sad all at the same time. I didn't know how I was meant to feel and how to sort all those emotions out. I needed time to breathe. To sort it all out.

Three years later I'm back. I can't say I've sorted it all out (is that even possible?!) but I've definitely had time to breathe. Life is rosy and I'm happy. I'm a stronger, more confident, more mature and possibly slighty more bonkers girl!

I've lost track of a lot of my old blogging buddies but am looking forward to finding them again and some new ones too!

Right, there's the dramatic welcome explanation over.....!! Here goes my life...Take Two!